Is it considered basic of me to love fall? Because I kind of do. There’s something about it that is cozy and inviting – it’s Mother Nature’s way of saying “you don’t have to go run errands today; here’s You’ve Got Mail instead”. (Anyone else love that movie? I’m a fan of Nora Ephron, and that one might be my favorite.) I love the colors. The briskness in the air. I love the sunshine when it peeks out. I also love the cloudy days.
Today was one of those cloudy days, but I felt a little more energized than I have the past few weeks. I turned 29 a few weeks ago, and I was fretting all summer about it. “Oh, It’s the last year of my 20s! They’ll be gone forever!” And then the inevitable spiral into how much death terrifies me because I don’t know anything about it.
I was able to spend some time in my favorite place with some of my favorite people, and it hit me — as it should have earlier — I love living. And that’s what I should be focused on. Not the “what ifs”. The here and the now. (Which is pretty standard advice from many mental health and mindfulness sources.)
With that in mind, I’m taking a writing workshop, and am relishing in it after only two classes. (Hey, I’m a third of the way through – it’s only 6 weeks.) I wanted to take it because I’ve never had any formalized instruction in creative writing, and while I have ideas (lots of ideas), it is ingrained in me to execute. And I have had trouble with that when it comes to my creativity. I’ll let you know how it goes.
I think that’s what I love about Nora Ephron’s movies. It brings the possibility of being able to do anything. And that’s what life is, isn’t it? The ability – and the possibility – to do anything.
Right now, I’m going to make chili. And watch another Nora Ephron movie under some blankets with some wine.